What I’m about to tell you today will destroy everything you thought you knew about redemption, forgiveness, and the limits of divine mercy.

My name is Father Thomas McKenzie.

I’m 59 years old, and for 23 years, I served as chaplain on death row at Indiana State Penitentiary.

I’ve witnessed 47 executions.

I’ve held the hands of murderers, rapists, and the most hardened criminals as they took their last breaths.

I’ve heard final confessions that would make your blood run cold.

I’ve seen men cry, beg, curse God, and die with hatred in their eyes.

But nothing, absolutely nothing, in my two decades of ministry to the condemned, prepared me for what happened on May 3rd, 2024, the birthday anniversary of Carlo Akutus, when I accompanied Marcus Williams on his final request before his scheduled execution 3 days later.

What transpired in those 72 hours revealed a truth about divine mercy and human transformation that challenged everything I learned about justice, forgiveness, and the human capacity for change during more than two decades ministering to America’s most desperate condemned inmates.

I need to tell you about Marcus Williams.

I need you to understand who he was, what he did, and why what happened to him is medically, psychologically, and spiritually impossible according to every expert who examined his case.

I need you to know that I’m not a man prone to superstition or emotional exaggeration.

I’m a Protestant minister with a doctorate in theology from Princeton Seminary.

I’ve been trained in crisis counseling, trauma psychology, and pastoral care.

I approach my work with skepticism, and professional detachment because I’ve seen too many death row conversions that were nothing more than desperate manipulation.

Marcus Williams was 34 years old when he died.

He had been on death row for 12 years, convicted of triple homicide during a botched robbery in 2012.

This wasn’t a crime of passion or a tragic accident.

This was calculated, brutal, and senseless.

three innocent victims, a convenience store clerk named Robert Chen, age 52, his daughter Amy Chen, age 19, and a customer who happened to be in the wrong place at the wrong time, 8-year-old Daniel Morrison, were murdered for $340 and some cigarettes.

The crime scene photographs still haunt me.

The medical examiner’s report documented execution style shootings.

Marcus had shot each victim in the back of the head while they knelt on the floor.

The little boy had been crying for his mother.

The surveillance footage showed Marcus laughing as he stepped over their bodies.

During the decade I served as Marcus’s spiritual director, he remained impenitent, cynical, manipulative.

He rejected every attempt at religious counseling.

He mocked other prisoners who found faith.

He frequently told me with a smile that never reached his cold eyes.

Father, God abandoned me a long time ago, and I abandoned him right back.

We’re even.

I need you to understand the depth of Marcus’ hardness.

This wasn’t a man struggling with guilt or wrestling with his conscience.

This was a man who had completely shut down any capacity for remorse.

Prison psychologists diagnosed him with severe antisocial personality disorder.

His own lawyer during the sentencing phase couldn’t find a single mitigating factor to present to the jury.

Even his mother testified that Marcus had been cruel and violent since childhood.

In 23 years as a prison chaplain, I’ve witnessed every possible human response to impending execution.

Some men find genuine conversion and die reconciled with God and their victims families.

Some fake religious transformation out of desperation, hoping for lastminute clemency that never comes.

Most die in the same spiritual hardness they lived in, refusing to acknowledge their crimes or seek forgiveness.

Marcus seemed destined for that last category.

A man who had so completely sealed his heart that not even the certainty of death could penetrate his defenses.

The morning of April 8th, 2024 began like any other Monday on death row.

I arrived at Indiana State Penitentiary at 6:00 was a.m.

as I had done every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday for 23 years.

The familiar ritual of security checks, metal detectors, and escort through five locked doors, had become so routine, I could do it in my sleep.

Sail block D, where death row inmates were housed, smelled of industrial disinfectant, stale air, and something else.

Something I can only describe as the scent of hopelessness.

Marcus Williams was housed in cell 47, the second to last cell on the left side of the corridor.

His execution date had been set for May 6th, 2024, exactly 4 weeks away.

Under Indiana protocol, condemned inmates receive increased pastoral access during their final month.

This meant I would visit Marcus three times weekly instead of once, whether he wanted spiritual counsel or not.

Good morning, Marcus,” I said, pulling up the metal folding chair outside his cell.

The plexiglass barrier between us was scratched and yellowed from decades of use.

Through it, I could see Marcos lying on his bunk, staring at the ceiling, his hands folded behind his head.

“Nothing good about it, Padre,” he replied without looking at me.

This was our typical exchange.

In 10 years, Marcus had never called me by my actual title or name.

Always Padre delivered with just enough sarcasm to remind me.

He considered our relationship a joke.

I brought you some books, I continued, holding up three theological texts I’d selected from the prison library.

I thought you might want to read about what? Forgiveness, redemption, God’s infinite mercy.

Marcus sat up abruptly, swinging his legs off the bunk.

At 34, he still had the build of the high school football player he’d once been.

Broad shoulders, muscular arms, a face that might have been handsome if it wasn’t perpetually twisted in contempt.

Padre, we’ve been doing this dance for a decade.

I killed three people.

I’m going to die for it.

That’s justice.

There’s no redemption story here.

I’d heard variations of this speech hundreds of times.

What I hadn’t heard before was the slight tremor in his voice, so subtle I almost missed it.

“Marcus, are you afraid?” I asked directly.

“In 10 years, I’d never asked him this question.

” He laughed, but it was hollow.

“Afraid of what? Hell.

” “I’ve been in hell for 12 years, Padre.

At least death will be something different.

” “That’s not what I asked.

” Marcus stood and walked to the plexiglass, pressing his palm against it.

His hand was large, calloused from prison labor, scarred from dozens of fights.

You know what I’m afraid of? I’m afraid that there’s nothing.

No heaven, no hell, no judgment, no peace, just nothing.

And if there is something, I’m afraid of seeing their faces.

Robert Chen, his daughter Amy, that little boy Daniel looking at me asking me why.

This was the most honest Marcus had been in our entire relationship.

I leaned forward, my own hand mirroring his on my side of the plexiglass.

Marcus, if you could ask them why, what would you say? I’d tell them I was high.

I’d tell them I was desperate.

I’d tell them I wasn’t thinking straight.

He pulled his hand back and turned away.

But those would all be lies.

The truth is, Padre, I shut them because in that moment, I didn’t care.

They were just obstacles between me and what I wanted.

That’s the truth.

That’s who I am.

The conversation ended there, as it always did, with Marcus retreating into his familiar armor of cynicism and self-loathing.

But something had shifted.

For the first time, I’d seen a crack in his defenses.

3 days later on April 11th, I received an unexpected letter.

It was postmarked from Rome, Italy, addressed to Chaplain Thomas McKenzie, Death Row Ministry, Indiana State Penitentiary.

The envelope was thick, cream colored with elegant handwriting that seemed out of place in the harsh environment of prison mail.

Inside was a five-page letter written in flowing script along with several printed photographs and a small prayer card.

The letter began.

Dear Father McKenzie, my name is Sister Gabriella Toriani.

I am a Franciscan nun serving in the prison ministry at Regina Quaily Prison here in Rome.

Through our international network of prison chaplain, I learned about Marcus Williams and his scheduled execution on May 6th.

I am writing to you about someone who might help Marcus in his final days.

A young man named Carlo Akutis.

Carlo was born on May 3rd, 1991 in London to Italian parents who moved to Milan when he was an infant.

He died on October 12th, 2006 at just 15 years old from fulminant leukemia.

He was beatified by the Catholic Church on October 10th, 2020 in Aisi, Italy, where his body now rests in the sanctuary of Aramodeler.

During his short life, Carlo had a special devotion to prisoners and those condemned to death.

He believed that no one was beyond the reach of God’s mercy, no matter what they had done.

Carlo himself was a modern young man who loved computers, programming, video games, and wore jeans and sneakers.

He created a website cataloging eucharistic miracles from around the world, combining his passion for technology with his deep faith in the real presence of Christ in the Eucharist.

Father McKenzie, I am writing because Carla worked miracles for the impossible cases.

The men and women everyone else had given up on.

I have personally witnessed three death row inmates in Italy experienced profound conversion after being introduced to Carlos intercession.

One of them, Josephe Martino, was scheduled for execution in 1998.

After praying to Carlo, Josephe experienced such a complete transformation that his sentence was commuted to life imprisonment.

He died in 2019, having spent 21 years as a prison minister to other inmates.

I am enclosing photographs of Carlo, a prayer card, and information about his life and intercession.

Perhaps he can reach Marcus where human efforts have failed.

I sat in my office at the prison reading Sister Gabriella’s letter three times.

As a Protestant minister, I’d always maintained a respectful but skeptical distance from Catholic veneration of saints.

It wasn’t that I doubted the faith of Catholics.

Many of my closest colleagues in prison ministry were Catholic priests and nuns.

But the idea of praying to deceased holy people, asking for their intercession, felt foreign to my reformed theology.

Still, something about Sister Gabriella’s letter intrigued me.

The photographs she’d included showed a young man with a warm smile, wearing casual clothes, jeans, a polo shirt, sneakers.

He looked like any teenage boy you’d see at a mall or a coffee shop.

There was nothing ethereal or otherworldly about him.

He looked normal, happy, fully alive.

The prayer card included a brief biography and a prayer for Carlo’s intercession.

I found myself reading his story with growing fascination.

Here was a teenager who loved soccer and PlayStation, who had learned to program computers and built websites, who was passionate about science and technology, and yet who attended daily mass, prayed the rosary, and had such a profound devotion to the Eucharist that he cataloged eucharistic miracles from around the world.

Carlo had died from leukemia, a disease that struck suddenly and progressed rapidly.

According to the biography, he had offered his suffering for the Pope and for the church, dying with joy and peace despite his young age.

His last words were, “I’m happy to die because I’ve lived my life without wasting even a minute on things that don’t please God.

” I sat back in my chair, staring at the photograph of this smiling teenager.

Could someone like Carlo Acutis really reach someone like Marcus Williams? It seemed impossible.

Marcus had resisted every approach, rejected every offer of spiritual help, mocked every expression of faith he’d encountered in 12 years on death row.

But then I remembered the tremor in Marcus’ voice 3 days earlier when he’d admitted his fear of seeing his victim’s faces.

Maybe, just maybe, there was still a part of Marcus that wanted redemption, but didn’t know how to ask for it.

On April 14th, during my next scheduled visit with Marcus, I brought the material Sister Gabriella had sent.

I didn’t mention them immediately.

Instead, we had our usual conversation or non-con conversation really.

Marcus deflected every question, made sarcastic comments about the weather, complained about the prison food.

Finally, as our hour was winding down, I pulled out the photograph of Carlo Autis.

Marcus, I want to show you something, I said, holding the photo up to the plexiglass.

This is Carlo Autis.

He was a teenager who died at 15 from leukemia.

Marcus glanced at the photo with his typical disinterest.

Okay, so he’s now considered a blessed by the Catholic Church.

He’s known for his compassion toward prisoners and people condemned to death.

For a moment, Marcus’s expression didn’t change.

Then something flickered in his eyes.

something I couldn’t quite identify.

He died young? Marcus asked like the people I killed? The question caught me off guard.

Yes, Marcus.

He died at 15.

How’d he die? Leukemia.

It came on suddenly.

He was diagnosed and gone within days.

Marcus stared at the photograph for a long time.

And they say he was a saint.

The Catholic Church beatified him.

It’s a step before full canonization as a saint.

He’s known particularly for Did he suffer? Marcus interrupted.

Yes, leukemia is a painful disease, especially in its final stages.

And he was okay with that.

With dying so young, I consulted Sister Gabriella’s letter.

According to accounts, he offered his suffering for the Pope and the church.

His last words were about being happy to die because he’d lived his life for God.

Marcos stood up abruptly and walked to the back of his cell.

He stood there facing the concrete wall, his back to me.

Several minutes passed in silence.

I waited, experienced enough in prison ministry to know when to speak and when to stay quiet.

Finally, Marcus turned around.

His face looked different, softer, somehow, younger.

Padre, can you tell me more about him? About Carlo? Over the next week, I visited Marcus every day instead of our usual three times weekly.

We talked exclusively about Carlo Autis.

I shared everything Sister Gabriella had sent, and I researched more on my own.

I told Marcus about Carlo’s love for computers and programming, about how he’d created a website cataloging eucharistic miracles from around the world, about his devotion to daily mass and the Eucharist, about his joy and his friendship with everyone he met.

Marcus listened with an intensity I’d never seen from him.

He asked detailed questions.

He wanted to know about Carlo’s family, his friends, his hobbies.

He seemed particularly fascinated by the fact that Carlo was a normal teenager who loved video games and wore jeans and sneakers.

He wasn’t some weird religious kid,” Marcus asked during one of our conversations.

“He was just regular.

” “From everything I’ve read, he was extremely regular,” I replied.

He played soccer, had friends, loved technology, but he also had this profound spiritual depth.

He saw God in everything, in science, in nature, in other people.

Even in people like me, Marcus asked quietly.

Carlo believed no one was beyond God’s mercy, Marcus.

No one.

On April 28th, 8 days before Marcus’s scheduled execution, something extraordinary happened during our pastoral session.

Marcus had been unusually quiet, sitting on his bunk with his head in his hands.

I’d been reading aloud from a biography of Carlo Akutus when Marcus suddenly interrupted me.

Padre, I need to ask you something.

It’s going to sound crazy, but I need to ask.

I closed the book.

What is it, Marcus? He looked up at me and I was shocked to see tears in his eyes.

In 10 years, I had never seen Marcus Williams cry.

Can you take me to see him? To see Carlo? Where he’s buried? I blinked, certain I’d misheard.

Marcus, Carlo is buried in Italy in Aisi.

That’s I know where Aisi is, Padre.

I’m not an idiot.

He stood up and walked to the plexiglass, pressing both palms against it.

Listen to me.

This is going to be my last request, my last meal, my last words, my last visitor.

I don’t care about any of that.

I want to see Carlos tomb.

I need to see it.

Marcus, that’s logistically impossible.

You’re scheduled for execution in 8 days.

The protocols for death row inmates don’t allow for international travel.

The security concerns alone.

Padre.

Marcus’s voice cracked.

In 12 years, I have never asked for a favor.

Not from you, not from my lawyers, not from anyone.

I’ve never begged for clemency or filed appeals or asked for mercy.

I accepted my sentence because I deserved it.

But this, this is the one thing I’m asking for.

If you can make this happen, I promise you, I will try to make peace with God.

I will try to become the kind of man Carlo would want me to be.

I stared at Marcus through the scratched plexiglass.

The hardened, cynical killer I’d known for a decade had vanished.

In his place was a broken man, desperate for something he couldn’t name.

Marcus, I’ll try, but I can’t promise anything.

What you’re asking for is unprecedented.

Then make it precedented, Padre.

You’re a minister.

You’ve got connections.

You’ve got the governor’s ear.

Make this happen.

And I swear on my mother’s grave, I will face my execution as a changed man.

The next 48 hours were the most intense of my professional life.

I called everyone I could think of.

the governor’s office, the department of justice, human rights organizations, Catholic diosisan offices in Rome and Indianapolis, even the Italian consulate.

Most people thought I was insane.

A few thought it was a manipulation tactic by Marcus.

But something about the request, its specificity, its sincerity, compelled me to keep trying.

On April 30th, I received a call from the governor’s legal council.

Father McKenzie, we’ve consulted with federal authorities and the Italian government.

Under extraordinary humanitarian circumstances, and given the condemned man’s imminent execution date, we can authorize a supervised international visit for a period not to exceed 24 hours.

The security requirements are extensive and the cost will be borne by private donors.

Do you accept these terms? I couldn’t believe what I was hearing.

Yes, absolutely.

Yes.

The visit will take place on May 3rd, the birthday anniversary of Carlo Autis.

You will depart Indianapolis at 6 a.m.

Arrive in Rome approximately 600 p.m. local time.

Proceed directly to Aisi, allow a 1-hour visit at the tomb and return immediately.

Mister Williams will be escorted by six federal agents at all times.

He will remain in restraints throughout the journey.

Do you understand? I understand, Father McKenzie.

If anything goes wrong during this visit, any attempt at escape, any security breach, any deviation from protocol, you will be held personally and criminally liable.

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