My hands still shake when I think about that moment in Mecca.

Not from fear anymore, not from confusion, but from overwhelming gratitude that God pursued me even when I wasn’t looking for him.

Even when I was running in the opposite direction, even when I was standing in the holiest place of a different faith, absolutely convinced I had all the answers.

But I’m getting ahead of myself.

To understand what happened to me, you need to understand who I was.

You need to know that my story isn’t about a casual believer who got curious about Christianity.

This is about someone who was deeply, passionately, wholeheartedly devoted to Islam.

Someone who had staked his entire identity on being a good Muslim.

That someone was me.

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Before our brother Raza continues his story, we’d love to know where you are watching from and we would love to pray for you and your city.

Thank you and may God bless you as you listen to this powerful testimony.

My name is Raza.

I was born in Thran, Iran in 1989 into a family that would be considered modern by many standards, but deeply faithful nonetheless.

My father was a civil engineer who specialized in designing mosques.

I grew up watching him pour over blueprints at our dining table, calculating dome measurements and minorate heights.

He would tell me that every line he drew was an act of worship, that creating beautiful spaces for people to pray was one of the highest callings a man could have.

My mother was a pharmacist.

She worked at a hospital in central tan and I remember how she would come home exhausted but still insist on cooking dinner for our family.

She wore her hijab with quiet dignity, never making a show of her faith, but living it in every small kindness she showed to others.

On her days off, she volunteered at the Women’s Islamic Center, teaching basic health and hygiene from an Islamic perspective.

That we weren’t the family where the father was a imam and the children were forced to memorize Quran before they could barely read.

We weren’t that traditional.

We had a computer in our home.

We watched some television.

My father listened to Persian classical music while he worked.

We were educated professional part of Thran’s middle class.

But we were also unmistakably Muslim.

Prayer times were sacred in our home.

My father would stop whatever he was doing when the adhan called roll out his prayer mat and pray.

My mother fasted every Ramadan without complaint, even when she had long shifts at the hospital.

Friday prayers at the mosque were non-negotiable for my father.

And as I got older for me, too.

I had an older sister, Mariam, and a younger brother, Ali.

We were a happy family.

There was laughter in our home.

There was warmth.

My parents had a good marriage.

built on mutual respect and shared values.

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They wanted us to be successful in life, but they also wanted us to be good Muslims.

Not extreme, not radical, just faithful.

I accepted Islam as a child the way most children accept the faith of their parents without much question.

I prayed because that’s what we did.

I fasted during Ramadan because everyone around me was fasting.

I believed in Allah because I’d been told about Allah since before I could remember.

It was simply the water I swam in, the air I breathed.

But everything changed when I was 15 years old.

It was summer and I was riding my motorcycle through Tehran’s crowded streets.

I love that motorcycle, a small Honda.

my father had helped me by with money I’d saved from doing odd jobs.

It gave me freedom, independence.

On that particular day, I was heading to meet friends at a park near our neighborhood.

I don’t remember much about the accident itself.

One moment I was weaving through traffic and the next moment there was a car turning without signaling and then impact and then nothing.

I woke up 3 days later in a hospital room with my mother’s tear stain face hovering over me.

I’d fractured my skull.

I’d broken my left arm in two places.

I’d crushed three ribs.

The doctors told my parents I was lucky to be alive.

a few centimeters difference in how I’d hit the pavement and I would have died instantly.

During the weeks I spent recovering, something shifted inside me.

I’d always believed in Allah in an abstract way.

But now that belief became intensely personal.

I became convinced that Allah had spared my life for a reason.

I felt deep in my bones that I’d been given a second chance and I couldn’t waste it.

I made a vow in that hospital bed.

I promised Allah that if I recovered fully, I would dedicate my life to serving him.

Not as an imam or a scholar necessarily, but as someone who took his faith seriously, who lived it completely, who never took for granted the gift of each day.

My parents were surprised by the change in me.

Before the accident, I’ve been a typical teenager, sometimes praying, sometimes not, more interested in friends and football than in religious matters.

After the accident, I became someone different.

I started waking up for fajar prayer every single morning, even when it meant getting up before dawn.

I began reading the Quran daily, not because anyone forced me, but because I wanted to understand what Allah was saying to me.

I joined study circles at our local mosque, sitting with men twice my age, asking questions, absorbing everything I could learn.

My father watched this transformation with a mixture of pride and concern.

One evening, I remember him sitting beside me as I read from the Quran.

He didn’t say much, but he put his hand on my shoulder and squeezed gently.

That gesture said everything.

He was proud, but he also wanted to make sure I was okay.

That this wasn’t just trauma response or teenage intensity that would fade.

But it didn’t fade.

As I healed and returned to school, my devotion only deepened.

I started spending my lunch breaks in prayer instead of playing football with friends.

I stopped listening to music, believing it distracted me from Allah.

I gave away most of my possessions, keeping only what I needed, wanting to live simply.

Some of my friends drifted away.

They thought I’d become too serious, too religious, too different from the person I’d been.

It hurt.

But I told myself that Allah was testing my commitment.

I told myself that real faith required sacrifice.

When it came time to choose a university, I followed my father’s footsteps into architecture.

I enrolled at Thran University with plans to eventually specialize in mosque design like him.

I saw it as the perfect combination.

I could honor my father and honor Allah at the same time.

I could create beautiful spaces where people would connect with their creator.

But even as I studied architecture, my real passion was Islamic knowledge.

I spent hours in the university’s Islamic library.

I attended lectures by visiting scholars.

I joined a student group that organized Quran study sessions and charitable activities.

We would collect donations for poor families, visit orphanages, organize food distributions during Ramadan.

I felt alive in a way I’d never felt before the accident.

I felt purposeful.

Every action had meaning.

Every day was an opportunity to serve Allah.

I woke up with direction and went to sleep with contentment.

By the time I was in my early 20s, I’d become known in our community as someone serious about his faith.

Not in a scary or extremist way.

I wasn’t political.

I didn’t support violence.

I didn’t judge others harshly, but people knew that if they needed someone to organize a charity drive, I was that person to ask.

If they wanted someone to mentor their teenage sons about staying on the right path, I was willing.

If they needed help understanding a difficult passage in the Quran, I’d studied enough to offer insights.

I started a youth mentorship program through our mosque.

Every Saturday I would gather a group of boys age 12 to 16 and we’d play football for an hour then sit together and talk about life about faith about the challenges of growing up in modern terrina while trying to stay true to Islamic values.

I tried to be the kind of mentor I wished I’d had.

someone who took faith seriously, but who also understood the real pressures young people faced.

The boys in my group came from different backgrounds.

Some were from very religious families like mine.

Others came from homes where Islam was more cultural than spiritual.

I welcome them all.

We would sit in a circle after our football games, sweating and tired but energized.

And I would ask them about their weak, their struggles, their questions.

One boy, maybe 14 years old, once asked me why he should pray when it felt like Allah never answered.

I didn’t give him the standard religious answer about faith being tested.

Instead, I told him about my accident, about lying in that hospital bed, about the deal I made with Allah.

I told him that prayer wasn’t just about getting what you wanted.

It was about building a relationship, about staying connected to the one who created you.

I saw something shift in his eyes when I said that.

He started coming to prayers more regularly after that conversation.

Moments like that made me feel like I was making a difference, like my life had real purpose and meaning.

My mother would sometimes watch me leave for these sessions and shake her head with a smile.

She told me once that she’d prayed for me to be a good Muslim, but she’d never expected me to become quite so devoted.

She meant it lovingly.

But there was a question in her eyes too.

Was I happy? Was I doing this out of genuine joy or out of some sense of obligation? I assured her I was happy.

And I was.

I truly was.

During this time, I also worked as a tutor to earn money.

I helped younger students with mathematics and science, subjects that had always come easily to me.

But I had a specific goal for this money.

I was saving for Hajj.

I was saving for the pilgrimage to Mecca that every able Muslim is supposed to make at least once in their lifetime.

The idea of going to Hajj had become an obsession for me.

I dreamed about it constantly.

I imagine standing before the Cabba, that sacred cube- shaped structure at the center of the Grand Mosque, the place Muslims around the world face when they pray.

I imagined walking where the prophet Muhammad had walked, praying where he had prayed, connecting to the billion plus Muslims across history who had made this same journey.

I saved every realale I could.

I lived frugally, spending nothing on entertainment or unnecessary items.

Every coin from my tutoring went into a special account.

My family knew what I was doing and supported me.

My father even contributed some money, though I tried to refuse it, wanting to make this journey through my own effort.

When he insisted, I finally accepted with gratitude.

I understood what that money represented.

Not just financial support, but his pride in me, his approval of the path I’d chosen, his recognition that I’d become the kind of son any Muslim father would be proud of.

It took me three years to save enough.

Three years of discipline and dedication and anticipation building with every passing month.

I kept a small notebook where I tracked my savings.

Every time I added money to the account, I would write the date and the amount along with a short prayer of thanks.

That notebook became precious to me, a physical record of my journey toward this dream.

When I finally had enough money, I remember the evening I told my parents.

We were having dinner together.

The whole family gathered around the table like we did every night.

I waited until everyone had finished eating and then I made my announcement.

My mother’s eyes immediately filled with tears, but they were tears of joy, not sadness.

She stood up and came around the table and embraced me tightly.

My father’s face broke into the widest smile I’d ever seen.

Even my siblings seemed genuinely happy for me, understanding what this meant to me.

Miam asked when I would be leaving.

Ali wanted to know if I would bring him back zam zam water.

My father wanted to know every detail of my preparation.

The conversation went on for hours that night.

Everyone excited, everyone sharing in this moment that felt like the culmination of everything I’d worked for.

The next few months were a blur of preparation.

There were paperwork requirements, medical examinations, vaccination records.

Iran has a quota system for how many pilgrims can go each year, and I had to apply and wait for approval.

When the approval came, I felt like I’d won the lottery.

I attended preparation classes at the mosque, learning the specific rituals of Hajj, the prayers to recite, the order of activities, the spiritual significance of each act.

I studied the history of the pilgrimage from the time of Abraham and Ishmamail through to the present day.

I wanted to understand not just what to do but why.

The meaning behind every gesture, every prayer, every step.

The classes were held twice a week in the evening.

Our teacher was an elderly man who had made Haj three times.

He spoke about Mecca with such reverence, such love that you could see the longing in his eyes even as he taught us.

He told us about the crushing crowds, the intense heat, the physical demands.

But he also told us about the spiritual transformation, about how standing on the plains of Arafat with 2 million other Muslims changes you forever.

I hung on every word.

I took detailed notes.

I asked questions.

I wanted to be as prepared as possible about my imam.

The simple white garments that every male pilgrim wears regardless of wealth or status.

Rich and poor, educate and uneducated, Arab and non-Arab, everyone looks the same in Iram.

That’s the point.

Before Allah, we’re all equal.

Before Allah, our worldly distinctions mean nothing.

I tried on the iram at home, standing in front of my bedroom mirror.

The simplicity of it moved me.

Two pieces of white cloth, unstitched, unadorned.

In these garments, I would stand before the Cabba.

In these garments, I would pray at Mount Arafat.

And these garments I would complete the journey I dreamed about for years.

I began a spiritual preparation too.

I fasted more frequently.

I prayed longer.

I asked forgiveness from anyone I might have wronged.

I settled any debts I owed.

I wanted to arrive in Mecca with a clean heart, free from the burdens of unresolved conflicts or unrepented sins.

I went to people I hadn’t spoken to in years.

Old friends I’d had disagreements with, classmates I had wronged in small ways, anyone I could think of who might have something against me.

Some of them were confused by my apologies, others were touched.

All of them forgave me.

It felt like clearing away debris, making space for something new and clean.

The week before I was scheduled to leave, our mosque held a special gathering for all the pilgrims from our neighborhood who would be making Hajj that year.

There were about 20 of us.

The imam led us in prayers and offered us advice.

Community members came to wish us well that to ask us to pray for them at the holy sites to send us off with blessings.

I remember standing there surrounded by people I’d known my whole life feeling overwhelmed with gratitude.

This was my community.

This was my faith.

This was my identity.

Everything I was, everything I’d worked to become, was wrapped up in this moment, in this journey I was about to undertake.

Old women who had known me since childhood hugged me and cried.

Men my father’s age shook my hand and told me they were proud of me.

The boys from my mentorship program gathered around me, their eyes wide with a mixture of excitement and envy.

I promised them I would pray for each of them by name at the cabba.

The night before I left, I couldn’t sleep.

I lay in my bed, staring at the ceiling, my heart racing with anticipation.

I thought about the accident that had changed my life seven years earlier.

I thought about the vow I’d made in that hospital bed.

And now here I was about to fulfill the dream that had driven me through all those years of study and service and saving.

I thought about all the Muslims throughout history who had made this same journey.

the prophet Muhammad himself, the early companions, scholars and saints and simple believers from every corner of the Muslim world.

I was about to join that unbroken chain of pilgrims stretching back 14 centuries.

I felt ready, more than ready.

I felt like my entire life had been preparation for this pilgrimage.

The morning of my departure, my whole family came to Imam Kmeni International Airport to see me off.

My father hugged me longer than usual.

My mother cried openly, not from sadness, but from pride.

My sister gave me a small handwritten note with prayers for my journey, which I tucked into my bag.

Even Ali, who usually pretended to be too cool for emotional displays, seemed moved by the occasion.

Before I went through security, my father took both my hands in his and looked me in the eyes.

He didn’t say much, just a brief prayer for my safe journey and for Allah to accept my pilgrimage.

But his eyes were glistening and I understood he was sending his son to the holiest place in Islam.

For him this was as significant as it was for me.

My mother kept touching my face as if trying to memorize it.

She made me promise to call as soon as I arrived safely.

She made me promise to drink enough water in the heat.

She made me promise to be careful in the crowds.

I promised everything holding her hands the wanting to reassure her even as my own excitement was building to almost unbearable levels.

I boarded the plane with a group of other Iranian pilgrims.

We were all wearing our travel clothes, but we carried our Iramam garments in our bags, ready to change into them before we landed.

The excitement on the plane was palpable.

People were praying quietly, reading Quran, talking in hushed, reverent tones about what awaited us.

As the plane took off and Tran grew small beneath us, I pressed my face to the window and whispered a prayer of thanks.

I was going to Mecca.

I was going to stand before the house of Allah.

I was going to walk in the footsteps of prophets.

I had no doubts, no questions, no hesitation whatsoever.

I was a faithful son of Islam, going to the heart of my faith, expecting nothing but confirmation of everything I believed, the everything I’d built my life upon.

I had absolutely no idea that in just a few days everything everything would shatter in a way I could never have predicted never have imagined never have prepared for.

I had no idea that God had plans for me that were completely different from my own.

I thought I was going to Mecca to deepen my relationship with Allah.

I had no idea I was about to meet Jesus Christ in in the most unexpected, most impossible, most life-changing way imaginable.

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